Monday, November 12, 2007

Haa, he read my blog. okae think i'm gonna move to another blog.
it's not that i do not wan u to noe anything abt me, it's becos i hav to consider my bf's feelings too.( who the hell do u think i'm making u jealous)
i'm tryin to voice out.
did i ask u to ans me ?
Btw, i'm clarifying Knnz, i'm me jus in a lost. dun take pity on me.
i'm merely curios kenn accuse .wth ? to hell with it.

i relly dunno wth we are. anyway to hell with it.
i din cried. cos it's over. i never ever wan to do this again.
it simply sucks.

u're not being nice & polite.
not even with the frdster reply.

u're always not nice.

anyway, glad it's all over.

i wun blog anymore.
never.

eve outy-

posted by Eve @ 11/12/2007 11:38:00 PM 0 Comments

i wanna love Mr Soon! i wanna forget u!...
i loathe the me now..
argh...

i wanna forget u ! i wan to forget u !

I WILL !

posted by Eve @ 11/12/2007 10:33:00 PM 0 Comments

Ya he agrees that i'm too ugly for him to even wanna tke pics with.
haa haa and he agreed, he dun loves me. haa haa..
after 6 yrs, than i know.
thanks..

it's really like the COCO Lee's song Wang ri Qin.

anyway to hell with it.
it's tormenting..

lol, dunno what the hell will he wrote that for me ?
anyway, i cldnt care less. it just makes me feel sheater...

i just wanna cry now.

i dun wanna blog anymore.

out @!

posted by Eve @ 11/12/2007 10:28:00 PM 0 Comments

Just what on earth is love all about?

IT can bring a lot of happiness but it also comes in a package with sorrows and pains.
IT sends u high up to cloud number nine, it’ll also brings u down to Hell at level ninety-nine.

By right, it should taste Sweet most of the time…
However, the fact is u have a little of sweetness, a little more of sour taste and the rest will be bitter…

Gradually as time pass, it turns bland, you’ll still taste it every now and than but u no longer feels the sweetness, the sour nor the bitter taste…

If only we could taste Love like the Pros tasting chocolates. How nice would it be??
We’ll just keep on craving for it, and not loathe it…
Even the dark chocolate will taste sweet, if taste in the right way. .

Anyway, that’s facts of love. . And of course it’s from my point of view. .

The sky seems cloudy now, just came back from lunch. . Mood: sleepy. *Yawns*

I did not sleep well last night. I was like floating for 2 hrs.. Than woke up at 12 plus to go to the loo. . Well, I felt a little better =) however, the mind is still full of sheats and finally able to sleep at around 1 plus 2… Wth?! @

He changed his shoutout again, din catch much. . Hmm, wonder how is he doing? He seems to be doing very well. Last few months, or beginning of the break-up he was drinking and drinking. He drowns himself with beers to sleep. In his O’ blog he wrote that he’ll dream of a hairy hair rescuing him out of his sorrows. Which was me (I’m hairy). But I think now, I’ll no longer appears in his dream nor in his mind. If that’s the case, it should be the right way (ya, eve is trying to be wei da again) his life seems enriching. Really am happy for him, I’ve never seen him smile like this before. Seriously, deep in me, I felt elated. Glad that he’s doing well and smiling so sweetly. Happy that he’s searching for his lost soul. I’m joyful that he’s picking himself up and finding a new love. But somewhere in my heart, I feel sad. Upset that in the past I cant’ make him whole. No matter how much I gave nor how much I love him, it does never reciprocate. These few months proved that I’ve done the right thing by letting him go, he’s better off without me.
I do not know if he loves me, all I know is that sometimes loving a person is not all about owning and keeping them by your side. Well, it’s about letting the love one be happy. I have no idea when will my love for this guy will ever cease. All that I’m clear of is he’s good and well now. That’s all I asked.
Well, the fact is I can’t provide him with what he needs. What I can offer is not what he wants. . . But so long as he’s happy now, I know that I won’t look back. I’ll move on ahead and try to mould my life from here.

Life is short which everyone says. Lol, but for me, I feel that life is a long journey and is full of pricks. But without the irritating ordeals, one would never learn & grow. It’s there to mould us all. It’ll make us stronger and gets to understand things better. Those who had gone through more ordeals are people who are strong and independent. They have a mindset of their own, when crisis arrives, they’ll know how to handle it more effectively.
Well, so as I’ve said before, I thank all those people who had appear in my life journey, which is a long and painful wan (hee hee). They made the present me. I must learnt o be grateful and stop carrying so much worries and starts to be satisfied with all that I’ve got.
I feel that I’m too greedy, always asking for more (PEPSI ad). Haa haa.. Life is not easy, but we have a choice to not to let it be miserable instead, be open and positive. So that time would pass faster and with laughters.


DD is a nice guy, I’m lucky to have him. I have not start giving him my all. Well, it justs takes more time.
Let’s be patient and well, perhaps there are more to come? I dunno.

O ya, recently, I’ve felt that I’m a little sian of taking of little sis.
Dunno la, it’s mainly because I won’t have my life.
C’mon I’m only 24, I’ve wasted 6 yrs doing basically nothing, I don’t to waste the rest of my life away. However, on the other hand, I was the wan who took up the responsibility of wanting to care for this girl. I pity her. She lost dad at a young age of 3. Mum doesn’t really cares.
O wth?! I better stop whining, cos it’s never ending..
I hate that WEAK me..

Sometime, I just wish that I’ve redeem myself, although I can’t bear to leave with no accomplishment at all.
Sians.
Life seems so meaningless.

Okae, so for now, eve has a doting & caring Bf, a understand & sensible sister, a playful & attitude brother, a ignorant & cutsey little sister plus a not so responsible mum.
To sum it all, it’s consider not bad le. Do not understand why is she still complained and dwelling? Lol.. O Whatever ~

Works sucks, I’m typing this entry during office hours. Basically, there’s no work. So sians, sent out 2 resumes, 1 of it just yesterday evening. . dunno will I be able to get shortlisted for an interview. Sigh I wanna get out of this sheaty workplace. Low pay and no future man… Eve shouts: “I need a new life!”

Eve prays/ “ Dear God, please gimmi advice on my career. I’m lost. O no, god pls gimmi wisdom and enlighten me instead. I wanna have a clear head to think well and hopefully the luck will shines on me.”


I was wondering how to be simple and nice? I always that I’m not that complicated and I’m quite nice. Lol, but reality isn’t so. Recollecting those days with Eric, I’m thinking how lousy a gf or a person I am. He always claimed that I’m lousy. I really want to know how sheaty I am as a gf.. Perhaps by knowing, I’ll come to terms of it and learn to be a better girl. But seriously I know I have a real bad temper, but I feel I can be quite a nice gf. Dunno I dunno it’s driving me crazy. I wanan find out so badly how can he lives with me for the past 6 yrs even though he doesn’t likes me? That’s a horrible truth. . I felt chill down my spine. How can I trust anyone? How do I trust them? The man who slept beside me for years actually holds no feelings for me. Sheat, I’m thinking of the sad memories, damn I feel like crying. I wan to ask why he does not wan to take pictures with me? ( but now kept taking with that cutsey bugs teeth girl) Am I that ugly? Why wouldn’t he hold my hands? (he has not hold my hands for a few years) why why why why why ? why he hates me so but still stays with me? Why why ? am I that useless and horrible? Arghh…
It simply makes me feels used. He always said that he’s patching up with me cos its more convenient for him to meet Nig, he gets to have his own space, he gets to enjoy the aircon.. Argh argh.. what what what ? for 6 yrs, my feelings being toyed ma? What ? I felt so sheaty. I gave my all.do u noe that. I love him u noe? And what do I get ?

Whatever..

It’s pointless. Maybe, I jus got too agitated and think waywardly again. Haa haa haa haa..

Whatever..

歌曲：可惜不是你
歌手：梁静茹 专辑：丝路 通往爱的路途
这一刻突然觉得好熟悉
像昨天今天同时在放映
我这句语气原来好像你
不就是我们爱过的证据
差一点骗了自己骗了你
爱与被爱不一定成正比
我知道被疼是一种运气
但我无法完全交出自己
努力为你改变
却变不了预留的伏笔
以为在你身边那也算永远
仿佛还是昨天
可是昨天已非常遥远
但闭上双眼我还看得见
可惜不是你陪我到最后
曾一起走却走失那路口
感谢那是你牵过我的手
还能感受那温柔

那一段我们曾心贴着心
我想我更有权力关心你
可能你已走进别人风景
多希望也有星光的投影
努力为你改变
却变不了预留的伏笔
以为在你身边那也算永远
仿佛还是昨天
可是昨天已非常遥远
但闭上双眼我还看得见
可惜不是你陪我到最后
曾一起走却走失那路口
感谢那是你牵过我的手
还能感受那温柔
可惜不是你陪我到最后
曾一起走却走失那路口
感谢那是你牵过我的手
还能感受那温柔
感谢那是你牵过我的手
还能温暖我胸口

Eve outy- 1505 hrs, 12/11/07

posted by Eve @ 11/12/2007 03:11:00 PM 0 Comments