Monday, June 21, 2004

ken i consider dat as a tok wit "ya" ? was dat a tok aniwae.. well well.. i relly kinnt figure anidin out.. gosh .. felt helpless nce again .. I loathed it.. my last question was, 'are we still frds?' 'frd lik last tym or jus proj mates.. '.. ur replied was 'lets jus see how it goes'

i dunno why. da moment u told me its no pt tokin abt it, tears simply flows down my cheeks.. it went outta control. i was totally ehh ehhh it kennt b describe... emotions went berserk.. i am totally lost of wrds..

how much i wanna tell "u".. i dun wanna lose "u".. since da dae "u've" avoided me, well, "u've" been lingering on my mind.. i've pondered,i've wondered,i'm searchin inside out to find out why.. den i've realised how impt "u" are to me.. jus got a very strong urge to ask "u" nt to lev me jus nw.. ... ... and its all `lets jus see how it goes`..

seriously,i'm still weepin..still cryin tt i've lost u.. it jus wun stop.. lol.. i wonder why.. now my keyboard is kinda flooded.. `askin me to stop bother and wonder`.. mm its too difficult.. too hard to nt to do so..
i kinda felt 'sick' and tired.. both physically and mentally..

a tot jus flew in my mind,a tot of runnin awae again.. jus feel like being alone.. all alone.. all alone by myself, all by myself...

i miss "u"...

posted by Eve @ 6/21/2004 04:25:00 AM 0 Comments

well well.. havin acute headache.. been tinkin the whole nyte till slept oni for a few hrs.. i wonder why mus i tink so much eh.. no wae am i gonna find a solution.. nth's gonna help in aniwae... it'll b da fact dat i've lost a frd.. a veri impt frd.. a frd dat i ken truly claimed a close frd. What da hell did happened ? did i relly asked him to came over? i kennt relly rem..it was at wee hrs.. i was confused, fatigued, busy msgin wit 2 parties... relly kennt recall...=( sadded..so sadded... wateva... he said tt i've asked him to come over twice.. did i relly do dat?... sigh...wat ken i sae ? i dun tink so.. and i relly kennt REcollect *weeps*.. been tinkin and mind twirlin to find da truth and ans.. yearnin and anxious to get da solution to it...

~ I relly Dun wanna lose u! a frd.. a frd dat's by my side wenever i nided sum1,a frd dat clicked well wit me, a frd dat'll give me gd advice, a frd tt i ken claimed 1 of my best frd.. thou u're of diff gender.. my relationship wit ya is nth but PURE FRDSHIP ... and i relly do treasure u a lot... but why mus i lost it all? ~

My bf is as impt to me..but a frd and bf holds diff position.. u'll nvr noe.. u'll nvr understan.. wen u're down in ur lfy whu's da one by ur side ? thou F is 1 of my close frd.. but she's nt the kind dat will b by my side ... she is nt lo... *sigh* so sad . i'm nt jus upset, but confused wit a lot probs.. *sigh* how am i gonna face him ? why mus i gained my bf back and lost my best frd? good gracious ! am i askin too much ? i oreadi hav nt much frd... why...why why... why why why ?????????

was tinkin if i shld hav a gd tok wit him.. but i relly dunno ... relly dunno.. hurts me wen my bf told me wat HE said .. saein nvr to bother him again wen we quarrel and dat he's scared of me.. i omos cried.. tears were bouncin.. but gotta hold bac..as i'm wrkin... argh argh argh argh argh argh....

`**`**`**`**` Sobs `**`**`**`**`

~*~*~eve outy~*~*~

posted by Eve @ 6/21/2004 02:21:00 AM 0 Comments