Prosaic as i am,Tatty as i dealt,Indignation as i felt, and this is how i yelled...

as green and as queer

just saw his profile, a girl left him comments. . lol, have no idea why i felt a tinge of "jelousy" lol, but i noe his no longer mine. i was the one who broke our ties. i kept reminding myself, i'm with DD . . i chose this path, i cant owned 2 person in my heart. . .

the girl worte that she'll teng him always and support him for all he'll be doing.
lol,that's what DD will always tells me too.
I guess its time for him to have a nice girl to teng him. it's not that i'm trying to b wei da. but isnt that how things shld go? after we've parted, we shld move on and lead the life we've always wanted?

i so missed those times when we're beginning to fall in love. . so young,so sweet and so unforgetable. but we had more tears than laughters together. . i noe he did showed improvements in the beginning of this year. but i'm already so fatigued. anyway, he found a soul mate, he mentioned that that girl and him had shared so much in common, and they are so able to get along. good for him! =) Somehow it brought me back to the many times when we miscommunicated. lol. . 1 thing wld become 2 totally different things. . lol . . perhaps its the height differences that cause so much hassles.. .. but i wld say actually he's a very sweet guy, nonetheless, it's a pity it din worked out. i loved him so much back than, well, he started liking me only after army . . well well well . . why fate played sucha fool on us? lol

6 yrs 6 yrs. . i owaes tot that daddy wld bless me frm above. . he wld gives me "the right man" i owaes believed that he and me will end with " happily ever after". but i've ruined it all . . i was so harsh i din even give him a chance to admend and the last try. . i really hope that it'll all be worthwhile

anyway, i think i got too green, eve shouts: "COMES BACK! Pls COMES BACK! Wake up , u gotta wake up !! WAKES UP !!!!"

lol, sigh, now i finally understood what he meant that after a couple broke up, it's impossible to stay as friends. . i always thought that it doesnt really matters but haa haa i finally got the picture.=) he once explained " how to be friends, i'll feel uneasy upon seeing u and ur new bf, and u'll also get uncomfortable with my new gf. " -.-"' phew, i finally got enlightened.

anyway,i'm in a bliss now. thou when DD is not by my side, my mind will starts wandering waywardly. . it's absurd . . i noe . .but i can't help nor can i control. . in the beginning i'll miss him like crazy, every 2 weeks, i'll find excuses to call him . . but in my heart, i was affirmative with my choice. than now, i'm still working on this habit working to kick it. . . . its so hard so so hard. but i guess, what he's going through is definately zillion times worst. he must be feelin so betrayed. .but i really have no choice. i cant allow this to carry on. i have no courage to face it,untill i met DD. Thanks so much DD =)

anyway, i'm blabbering rubbishes.. cos it 2 AM now,and i'm so so tired . .

haa haa..

i'm in my rainbow world now,its no longer black white . .

tke cre my lost love.

miss u my DD . .

evey is sleepy . .
-outy-

posted by Eve @ 7/24/2007 01:41:00 AM