Friday, October 29, 2004

I Relly Relly Lurve You Alot....
I Am Relly Relly Missing You Alot....

I Relly Relly Lurve You Alot....
I Am Not Hoping To Get Hurt Anymore....

I Relly Relly Lurve You Alot....
I Am Longing For Your Hug....

I Relly Relly Lurve You Alot....
I Am Yearning For Your Touch....

I Relly Relly Lurve You Alot....
I Am Wishing You Here Beside Me...

I Relly Relly Lurve You Alot....
I Relly Relly Do Baby....

posted by Eve @ 10/29/2004 04:05:00 AM 0 Comments

I'm feelin Sad,Sick & Tired too.

Am down cos had an arguement with deardear.. it all started when i told him,the plan of meeting J today,but was cancelled and I got pissed off cos this was the second time she called off our outing. When he first called, he sounded perky and cute. After upon hearing what i've told him, his tone changed,i guess i had spoilled his mood.There was mainly silence over the fone,therefore,in order to make the atmosphere better, i startin asking questions,hopin to find topics to tok abt. Nonethelss, i agitated him instead and he started shouting. Admitting he was unhappy with me hangin out with J and that there wasnt a need for me to report my plans to him. He choose not wanting to know abt it, as it'll only upset him more.hai, then, it was all blabberings of old & usual stuffs. After which,i simply asked him to go find sum1 beta den me,and that i dun deny i'm not a gd gf. Than,upon finishing my last line, his reply was " okae,byebye". Before he cld even complete his words, i hanged up, at "byeby.." and shtted my fone till 11 plus pm.

I guessed i just had enuff of not being appreciated by him. i told him that,i rejected many invitations to club..dat was to avoid arguements with him. As i dun relly think its ryte doin things behind sum1 else. thous sumtyms, certain things are inevitable. Moreover, i tried means and waes to not mit N wen he asked for lunch,dinner,shop for his shoe.... simply not wanting to upset or hurt him anymore and me feeling guilty... hai, i dunno la.. ders more i told him.. but jus cannot be bothered to elaborate it anymore. i'm so numb now. But, i did cried over the fone just now, i was so upset of how shallow our relationship are,How much trust we had for each other,How we ken quarrelled so many tyms over the fone even when we spent so little tym nowadays.
i've weeped.

i relly dunno what shld i do.i am so confused.
But,I relly do lurve him alot.


~Tots raced,emotions grew ~

When lurve is not being reciprocated,
its like a withered flower that will not bloom



i wanna b loved by HIM so much.

but..

nth is going to be the same anymore.

drms had been shattered long tym ago.

HE, neva expect a future out of us.

while i am pinnin so much for one.



How did i ever fell so much in lurve with a person?
How did i got so traumatized in a relationship?
How do i shut myself from living in such a terror?
How do i stop myself from falling any deeper?
How am i suppose to give u up?



I hate myself
I hate myself from loving you..



I know u hate me too
I know u have ur responsibilites to fufill
I know i am unable to replace the goddess beneath you
I know YOU will never be the way u used to.



eveyouty

posted by Eve @ 10/29/2004 02:56:00 AM 0 Comments