Tuesday, August 01, 2006

*Saded*

I feel so depressed recently.
Why am i deluding myself ?

Why ? why ? my head is overflowing...

its givin me headaches..

shoo .. go away ..


NO one.. there's no one.. here , or there ..

NO one is around..

i feel so useless.. helpless..

are u here to ease my miseries ?

or are u here to add on to my sorrows ?

Why do i not feel any joy ?

i cant laugh..

there's nothing funny..

everything is bland..

i need sparks..

ignite it for my sake wld u ?

*shouts*

Pls .. dun ignore me & lev me alone to rot ?

But, on contary, being alone, i feel much more at ease..

No stress, No mask, No fakeness, No lies, no pain . . .

WHy ? am i jus not lettin it go ? i think i am..

i cannot accept..

i cant..

i simply unable to do it.

/He/

I used to think that i'm the victim of ur words.
u gave me several deep cuts..
left me scars.

But i've realised, now, i'm hurting u non-stop.
even thou, cuts may not be very deep.
However, i gave u countless scars.

Nothing compared to mine.

Basically, u're suffering. . .
u're not happy with me.
u cant laugh, u cant smile, u cant cry, u cant be nice & u cant communicate with me. .

i'm sucha tyrant, u've got to tolerate with all my nonsenses...
adapt to my eating habits.
giving in to me due to me being short-tempered and unreasonable.
WHy? why make urself suffer?

i can never be satisfied with whatever u've done.
i'm owaes complaining...
i cant stop nagging...
i have no self-discipline.
i want things my way.
I, TAKE U FOR GRANTED.

why ?!

i have no idea either..

i thank u whole-heartedly for this comin 5 yrs.

but we're both not happy. u're accomodating me ..
imma spoilled brat.

what is impt to me.seems nth to u.

my bdae . . fancy me buying the cake myself.wating it jus like dat.
u were nice.for the past 4 yrs, i have nth, not even a wish, a cake,but jus a meal.
thanks for givin me a cake last yr.
and this yr u offer to get another cake. i dislike the idea cos, it it pointless.so meaningless..
i hate it..
i hate everyhting..
i guess its better to leave me alone..

i'm a greedy person, i asked for alot.

u wanna change me.. u cannot accept me for who i am..

sum are for my own good, i'm willing to change.
but its ridiculous, when i cant even wear things i wan.
i used to feel so good abt myself,and nw my confidence level dropped.
choosing my clothes became a huge headache.

i hate it..

i loathe my life.

i loathe myself.

i suppose i no longer noes how to lurve myself,needless to say to love another pple..

i wish i'm gone..
not as in dead.
it meant, takin a break.
take a break,have a kit-kat.

-eveyouty-

posted by Eve @ 8/01/2006 07:39:00 PM 0 Comments