Monday, May 24, 2004

well.. is my routine chk on him wrong ornot ? ehhh... but i tink i bian tai, i simply enjoys doin chks on him eh.. everytime found out sumdin.. hmm.. well, seems lik angel's still on his head.. so far this is the second tym i found out abt him browsin on frdster for Angel's profile.ehh, abit pissed but its jus that little.. but wat ken i do ? nth much abt it. jus crossin my finger to wait & see see ba. a part of me is jealous dat another gurl is on his mind, another part of me is hopin for him to find another gurl. dunno eh, i may think of other guy but they wun be constantly onmy mind.. so far la.. but i wonder how come Angel is on his mind. his type of gurl.. my goodness we're alike oni tru the short ht other than that .. lol .. sigh .. gosh why lidat .. i jus feel his nt the guy for me .. i'm lik livin and walkin behind his shadows all da tym. wateva he dun allow me to do, i kennt do.. lik i listened to him too much till i've turned into another evelyn. pple will call me housewife (wen we're together) or say "whoa u gotten so fat for ur bf sake! i will nvr do that !" some even comments dat, "why are u sucha loser? why mus u listen to him so much! u lost the woman, dignity & integrity, u let him climb ovr ur head...(kinda look down on me)" SO SAD lo... super sad...

now i felt that i oni live once, moreover, i hav no farkin idea wen i'll b dead. wat if i'm like my cousin, passed awae due to cancer? leavin behind so much undone ? sad ryte ? .. or wat if i'm lik my dad? died in a sudden, lagi more sad lo, cos prolly dead liao oso dunno .. its like, u live ooni dat once, COME On, enjoy as much as u ken... & nt tryin to please sum1 till u totally lost urself..

hmm, now my tots are, if u lurve sum1 u ken change dem but u gotta lurve dem for whuever dey are and nt tryin so hard to change dem, till da tym dey lost demself, the relationship seems bland ... lik WTF !!!!!!!!!!! lol...
aiya... maybe i demand too much liao.. but so sad, why kent u jus accept me for whuever i am ... lurve me as it is.. tok wenever its neccesary and nt farkin kipin ur damn mouth shuts..SILENCE drives me crazy !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

SAD AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH .............................

posted by Eve @ 5/24/2004 02:20:00 PM 0 Comments