Prosaic as i am,Tatty as i dealt,Indignation as i felt, and this is how i yelled...

Mood : Sad

Dunno why, today my mood is so off le.. hai sians..
Anyway, today was a nua day.. nua at home the whole day.
haa haa.. was sick man.. dunno why nowadays kept falling sick..
feelin so sian man, got flu, itchy cough and feeling dizzy here and there..
went doc got low blood pressure.. wTH!? the last time(Last mth) also low blood pressure.. last month was down with fever too..
haa haa...
sick sick sick...
i bet it must be coming all at a time.. haven been fallin sick for the past few yrs le ... lala lala...

so bored so bored..just now, quarrelled with DD..we yelled, we shouted, we cried, we hugged and we kiss for peace..
haa haa.crap..
but he's so sweet he never leaves me alone... hopefully he'll never..
when the whole sheer torture ended, he piggyback me to the loo.. cos i was having urgent call, and he whispered : "i'll piggy-back u for the rest of my life" well,well, weak me, i was touched. a few minutes ago we were arguing, he said he just wanted to have a simple relationship, i claimed that he got the wrong person, i dun belong to the category of simplicity. i'm not a simple girl and i do not own a simple life. he was real upset cos i said that he got the wrong person. ya of course this is not the first time i ask him to "go away", "go find another girl", "i'm not suitable for u" and "leave me alone, i rather be alone". . whenever i said those stuffs, he'll get extremely heart-broken. he felt that just at the moment he felt that everything is going so smoothly, but reality doesnt seems so.he felt that i dun treasue him.. at the sheer moment when i said those words.

Hmmm, i noe i love this boy. but lol, i dunno i shld feel happy. but seriously, i dun le.
dunno why, i tot by changing a bf, my life will be GAY.. haa haa.. okae, i must admit i'm happier than before.. but i'll still feel sad le.. and of course la, in life there'll be ups and down. what i meant is that i dun really feel that happy. just now he asked, issit becos whatever he done is not done by The most loved person of mine that's why i'm still unhappy... i was dumbfounded. hai, to assure him,i told him no. than i asked him does he still remember that day when i said that i was not his most loved person.. he shouted back, " it's been only how long since we're together, how to i gauge on that ?" *hearts breaks* ya i know, i can't weigh on that, i can't even claim that his the person i love most.. how can he..

sigh, than i asked, "do u still remember that u've asked me before that if i love him as a frd instead of a bf?" haa haa.. those words hit me hard...
i was dumbfounded again when he asked the other time.

sigh, i dunno la.perhaps i'm just tired, right after getting out a long relationship there i put my foot on a new wan.. no breaks in between... sigh, anyway, DD claimed, if that's not the case, i wld still be with eric and not him..
well, i guessed it's true..

anyway, life is a chore..
sians..

well, as for eric, he uploaded a new pic with his cutsey bugs teeth girl .. gd for him another step up ahead for him ... hmm, din felt much jealousy, but just feel that this girl is not that simple.. woo all the best ba.. he seems to be very keen, kept taking pics with her..
plus saw abit of his shoutout. dunno who is he implyin it too..
dun really dare to view his profile, i fear that i'll get emotional again...
hai sians la...

life simply sucks...

when will i be able to be happy again ?

eve outy-

posted by Eve @ 11/11/2007 09:49:00 PM