Prosaic as i am,Tatty as i dealt,Indignation as i felt, and this is how i yelled...

This was written way back a few days (July 19, 2004, 7:14:19 AM)... i wasnt able to get online therefore jus wrote it on da wrds.. haiz..... haiz..... okae... ciao everyone.... my lfy still sucks..... been doin stupid dings nowadays.. dunno wats got over me... I miss myself ! the old loud and bubbly ME !!!!!!!!!!!!! not this grumpy & irritated me !~

Yst sent an email to nigel, voicin out my pt of views.. haiz..relly miss our frdship..missed him... haiz... stupid email too.... he nvr replied or anidin.. prolly he told eric dat.. anw i got tell him i emailed him.. haiz..dunno ah.... well well

laterz ...

eve outy..


its 6.43am, i'm havin classes at 10am... and i've oni slept for 1 hr plus.. die dunno why,havin bad insomia problem.. my whole body felt crushed.. i'm fatigue, my right arms are sore due to countless scoops of ice-creams,my gums been aching for da past 4 dae it oso gave me acute headache too.. drives me giddy !!!! ... die die ... neva eva felt dis "crushed" b4.. even wen i'm typin nw,i felt strengthless... argggg.....

was damn pissed wit eric too,was waken up by da stuffs he left beside me..my soldering stuffs and notebook dat i left on the cornor of my bed b4 i left for wrk..wtf lo! he cld hav left in sumwer else instead of beside me.. i dunno what was he thinkin..ya he said dat i left it on purpose to prevent him frm slpin..my farkin goodness!!!!!!!!!! argggg......siao is all i ken sae.. moreover, was askin him to acc me to walk ovr to nigel's place to tke my cet labsheets..den he mis-interpreted it! he heard me askin him to go over and tke frm nigel !!!!!!! wtf again lo... its owaes been lik dis..the both of us..miscommunicatin... fark it.... i relly hate him..hate him to da core ..i'm nt oni being irritated by him,i kinda strtin to feel numb towards him liao..as i relly kennt stand him jus as the wae he kennt stand me...my farkin goodness... kent even stand da sight of him nowadays..arggg... since he hates me so much..argg... frm last tym. den i suppose i shld stop tryin to please him..i guess its all to no avail.. everything is futile at this pt.. nth ken bring us back..i guess da both of us jus had enuff of each other.. he hated me all dis while..and with him fufillin his responsiblities,he bein a kind soul, tkin pity on me all da tym,well fark off,,enuff of all this sheat..relly its all enuff.. i noe i haven been a gd gf.. wich i have neva been .. towards ani of my bfs. but well,wateva,this is jus me.. tke it or leave it ba.. i'm oreadi turnin 21.. i ken b independent,why shld i hang on to my childdish and unreliable thinkin dat i ken count on sum1,the sum1 dat will bring me happiness ... dat sum1 who treats me lik as if i'm his everything.. sum1 whu'll b by my side regardless of watsoeva..i realise,i kennt blame dis person which doenst exists..cos i hav a bad k'ter,and sumtyms i relly dun deserved such gd treatment..so i shld hav jus dump dose tots...no one in dis farkin world exist or are willingly to do anidin for me.. all my life i've been a lousy & unfilial daughter,a bad sister, a worthless frd and a super kennt make it gf.. why bother.. i oni live once... so ? arggg... i guess my world sucks? i kennt trust ani1,i'm unfit to lurve ani1,i'm losin evry1,i'm even losin grip of myself... haaa... well well, let's jus end it wit life sucks..at least my life does suck! haaa..

WATEVA !!!!!!!!!!!

WOOT~ not forgettin dat i jus had an arguement wit eric or shld i sae everydae ?.. i suppose da both of us are jus waitin for da dae he enter NS and we're both free.. i relly dun lurve him animor.. same goes for him. so its beta off dis wae. no pt la.. let my drim remain as a drim. itll neva come true.. we ken neva last at the rate we're goin.. lol.. NEVA ! .. so sad .. i oso dun wanna see my future like now.. nth ken change it.. well,lemme jus conclude it, i"m HOPELESS.. super hopeless.. sumtyms i shldnt blame ani1 .. think back.. cause & effect.. u reap wat u sow.. so .. FARK off.. i'm relly very extremely tired ! my brain is unable to function well... haaa... i wanna slp .. soo soooo much sooooo..yes i relly wanna go and slp.... argh argh ....eve outy
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posted by Eve @ 8/11/2004 06:37:00 PM